06/07/2026
Hi all,
As you can probably tell from the lack of posts I’m still adjusting to my latest cancer diagnosis. The brutal reality of having my right index finger partially amputated is both gruesome and painful, although much less than it was immediately after surgery. And, as I’m still waiting to hear whether the disease has spread, it means cancer is on my over-active brain from the moment I wake up until I fall asleep.
While my work previously offered a creative escape, in the last week my mood has been so low that I’ve found it difficult to concentrate on admin and knitting has proved too tiring for my still swollen hand. Instead, I’ve been pottering in my front garden, doing some light (one-handed) weeding and exploring the iPad and Pen I bought just before my surgery.
At the time I thought they might help rehabilitate my hand as it adjusts to writing & drawing without the right index fingertip. Turns out I was right. Having bought the app I’m able to lose myself in the colour and pattern play of combining layers with the numerous brushes and I must say, I’m loving the results. It takes me back to my early 20s when I was a textile design student and coincidentally, had my first cancer diagnosis. Who’d have thought that all these years later the exploration of pattern and mark-making would still be helping me through the darkest of times? Together, of course, with family and friends; near and far, in-person and online.
Some people have described me as brave for sharing my experiences. Flattering of you to say, but I’m not. I simply wanted to raise awareness of acral lentiginous melanoma because it’s one of the lesser known forms of melanoma and therefore can remain untreated for a long time. What I’ve found both humbling and comforting are all the comments on my previous post, sending love, support and virtual hugs. Thank you, I’m touched more than you can imagine and while I don’t have the bandwidth to respond to every single one, I wanted to drop in to send this bright and beautiful thank you, created as part of my daily therapy.
Wishing you a joyful week
J ###