25/03/2026
This thing is a symptom of anxiety , and the hidden ones to that are not surfacing now , I can't keep battling, but I lean back to life, Now I know that I am not anxiety, and in any way my nervous system is reacting due to things it has sensor and felt before and what ever fear there is is not a fear but a perceived threat whether it be thoughts or adrenaline rush , and the constant overthinking loop are all symptoms plus, intrusive thoughts I have to admit that this anxiety didn't play out one way but diverse ways, being more physical then mental, and also social, it perpetuates to generalize but, just leaning back to life living no matter what and then pray and then trust, I know my healing shall progress, so this I want to do it myself is not going to fix anything and I'm being true with myself , can't lie and deceive no more, there are something that this thing tends to make one react to by one own's self and make things worse by being fearful, worried, struggling, and fighting plus anger, even if it wants to get up there, I can't fight it there, it's is anxiety symptom not something that can't be named, it is known and revealed , it is not the main focus, whether I have anxiety or not, life continues, whether you worry or not , life is good and bad, when you overthinking, reality is not thoughts, so life itself is not disrupted, where does the disorder came from, from perceiving and indicating that there is danger, then believing it, this can disrupt system and cause lots of unwanted things long term, even in the now, it can try to make its perception as the reality of life, but here anxiety plays it show, fueling different other emotion, even it's symptoms aren't meant to be perceived and indicated as threats or danger even the high alertness is like a signal and indicator that there is something dangerous not okay there is something wrong, and then the analysis begins that is overthinking that leads to no where, reinforcing back the loop and because there is no real danger the body and mind is really facing and taking actions about, here anxiety gets stuck in the body unreleased emotion and play out itself in other ways , anxiety will paint the whole world dangerous and fearful, it acts as the indicator and action to the nervous system, why is anxiety the frontman ahead running the show it uses like systems connected to play out, you can overthinking situation not because the situation is worse but because of the kind of thoughts you have about it, the kinds of emotions and labels you attached to it, so it can keep on playing up there thereby reinforcing itself through worries , the mind believes it is surviving this way trying so hard to figure it out, the problems too feels like we are doing something about this if we are thinking about this too much and putting all focus on this , and also there is the conscious part too, when you become aware of the thoughts you have and the emotions running and your own views and the physical reactions you can see like anger and vexation, fear and guilt, shame and more, when you become conscious of this you can react in fear and it keeps anxiety going and going so , there is nothing here but that you should perceiving threats and harm and unrest and danger in everything and it also playing out as frontman either behaviour, actions and beliefs then signaling danger to the body and from body then to the mind which is thoughts and thinking so it is coming through you and itself , when anxiety is coming through you it is hard to notice and take long to realize Because you keep on fighting with it and doing this means one thing what you resist always persist, so you are giving it strength , fueling it with your frustration, making it learn you more and more, telling it your weakness, which fear utilizes , anxiety. coming back and forth can keep one confused because you don't know what to do, you don't have control, you can't control the thoughts , you cannot stop the symptoms, you are too focused on it inward it's acts as distraction, it's fueling your avoidance and heart racing, so here one seem confused on what to do, so your next action is to solve anxiety, meditation and all sorts adding other things to it, labelling it as one mysterious illness, seeing it as a character flaw, anxiety loves to be the unknown pain cause, and inflicts suffering, so it plays under the umbrella of UNKNOWN or INTROVERTISM and anxiety does one thing it shot down the logic house that is one of the reason you can't think your way out of anxiety , its a big NO, because you see it as thoughts instead of what it really is , that is just an idea, and also the mind has it own mechanics or way it exist , you can't fight thoughts , so now knowing how it plays out helps to educate you body and mind that this is where this is coming from, this is how it plays out, this is how it lives on, this are it side effects, this is what it really is, this is anxiety!!!!!!!!! nothing else
