06/20/2026
“In the first creation He gave me myself; but in His new creation He gave me Himself, and by that gift restored to me the self that I had lost.” ~Bernard of Clairvoux
In a “blogette” a couple of months ago, I expressed the desire to reinvent myself now that I face a new life with circumstances that I never expected (go back and read my post from March 17, 2026).
“What do I want to do when I grow up?” Isn’t a joke I make anymore. It’s honest and real. And every day the urgency of that question brings me to my journal, to my friends and mentors, and to God. Peter Scazzero teaches that we must go back in order to move forward. So, I’ve been remembering who ‘she’ is. Who was that girl in 1998 that considered the world her oyster? She LOVED Garth Brooks and musical theater (see evidence in photo!) She wanted to own a pickup truck and blast ‘Wide Open Spaces’ by the Dixie Chicks until she reached that future! She had stars in her eyes, adventure in her veins, and life in her lungs. She definitely didn’t spend any time fretting about the details or the what-ifs (like I do now).
What did she want out of this life? What did she dream about? What can I learn from her 28 years later?
For now, I’m rediscovering instead of a reinventing. I found that dreamer still inside me… she’s slowly and courageously coming out to remind me where this all started. I’m building resilience more everyday and looking to God to restore the parts of me that were lost.
I still don’t have all the answers, but I don’t think that’s the point. I don’t have to have it all figured out before I start the next chapter. The finish line isn’t the story. The path getting there… now that is where the adventure happens and makes the finish line so worth the effort.
If you are reading my posts, I want to say thank you. I do this to document this season of my life… to reflect on the challenges, blessings, and my growth. But also, I know our stories help others. If my raw honesty, lessons learned, sufferings, and joys bring you any encouragement, then this journey is not in vain.
To God be the Glory.