10/29/2024
The last few days have been tough. Lots of grief & grief-related life happening. I felt a bit like I was getting pulverized.
But God. He’s still the same good God. Even as my world has fallen apart. He held the remaining pieces (& worked through His body to do so) together. He’s always been what holds it all together. All the good. Is my God’s. Surely there’s heartbreak and hardship. Those are a bit more complex to parse out.
In this season, God has provided different people to help us in different ways (don’t worry, if you’re feeling led, not all positions are filled 😂) and He’s even been trying to teach me to (gulp) ask for help. That’s a work in progress. But an unexpected glimmer in this deeply dark season of our walk as a family has been my widow friends. Most new, some dearly special have been with us for the long haul. These women have listened understandingly & reassuringly (this IS hard & that’s ok) when the grief is too thick to wade through alone. They’ve pointed me to His love over & over again when it was too murky to see clearly (eyes too tear-soaked to see His face often need a gentle leading hand to find His grace upon grace.) It’s the gang NOBODY wants to be in, but I absolutely couldn’t fathom this without them. And God designed it this way. Community is not optional - for any of us. We’ve become a society that exists in false proximations of community where we see the surface or at most dip a toe in, but fail to dive deep into the depths of the goodness He gives through raw community.
One of those precious friends sent a few pages of a book over for me to read tonight & couched it up with an acknowledgement of how tired I was - but I needed to read this. It spoke of testimonies & needing to remind ourselves of the encounters we’ve had with our God. I needed that. So tonight I took communion to remember His audacious sacrificial love in His death & resurrection. And in standing up for little sinful me in the face of man & corporations today. I am humbled. I am loved. And you are too. What encounters with His love can you retell today? What alter of stones can you build as a remembrance to His goodness (we did this at our wedding 🥰💔)
