10/21/2024
To our cutie pie, Mac…
My “sweet old man” and daddy’s “bud”.
Grieving you has felt insurmountable at times and I’ve wanted to write this but couldn’t bear it until now. We miss you every second of every day. I kiss and gently pat your urn every morning and evening because it makes me feel good to believe you feel them in doggy heaven. I hope you hear me when I talk to you too baby boy. You came to visit me in my dreams the other night, which I had begged of you to do, grasping onto the things I had gathered that remind me of you. Please don’t mistake my tears for sadness baby. It just felt so real, in my dream, when I was petting you. Waking up at that very moment with the realization that you aren’t physically here with us anymore broke me all over again. But, please keep visiting me…I’d rather have you in my dreams than not at all. You are so special to me, my sweet old man. You were my first dog outside of grandma and grandpa’s house and the first addition to our family after daddy and I got married. I remember when you were a puppy, how you’d gnaw on our wooden furniture, like a little beaver. You never stopped because we’d always catch you sneaking snacks (sticks) in the back yard. As you grew older, more cute quirks developed. We loved to tickle your front toes because of the way you’d tuck them under and stick your butt so high up in the air, you’d topple over. Such an adorable goof! I remember how we’d always get so annoyed because you’d stop every few steps, walking directly in front of us, just to check in. I’d give anything to have you stop me on my path, only this time, I’d drop everything I was doing if it meant I could love on you one last time. Your passing has been so incredibly humbling because I realized all the moments I took for granted…like hearing your bark with Daxx’s whenever the mailman was coming up the street or when daddy pulled in the driveway after work. I miss having 2 snouts greet me at the door whenever I’d get home. I miss seeing how excited you’d get for breakfast and din-din…I even miss feeding you. You were so good with your little brother, Daxx. He doesn’t fully understand where you’ve gone but I know he thinks of you because as soon as we get back from a walk, he sniffs around searches the house for you. He’s only ever known a life with you so we were nervous he’d get depressed but have made it our mission to shower him with extra love to make up for the void. I’m thankful to have countless videos and pictures of you boys playing and also cuddling during your mini daytime comas. Sometimes, I can still hear y’all doing morning wrestles, running up and down the hall. It’s just so hard to believe that I’m having to remember you now verses physically being able to hold, touch and smell you. At the base of your ears, you still had fuzzy baby fur that smelled like you as a puppy. Anytime I woke up and you were laying beside me, I’d shove my face into those soft spots and just inhale so deeply. Speaking of fur, I would give anything to pick off a few more b***y clumps. You’d never stop shedding, it blew our minds! Right after daddy would brush you, new clumps were forming. We would always laugh and joke about that. Most of all, I just miss the smile on your cute little face. We could always tell when you were happy and if you weren’t sick, that’s what you always were, happy. If there was ever any tension between daddy and I, you’d always crawl into his lap with a pitiful look which was always a healthy distraction from any argument. Not only did you exude happiness but you wanted everyone around you to feel it too. My sweet baby boy, you are all that is good rolled into one loving ball of fur, with the biggest heart. We couldn’t have wished for a better dog and no one will ever replace you, never. You meant the world to us Mac. We will love you forever and I can only hope that when my time on earth comes to an end, that you’ll be there to greet me again with your unforgettable, big and cute smile. I wasn’t ready to let you go…I’m still working on that. However, I/we will never stop missing you and thinking of you. The list of what we love about you and what makes you so special to us is endless. You’ve taught us so much and we’re the luckiest humans in the world to have experienced life with you, my “sweet old man” and daddy’s “bud.” RIP Mac-Murray, until we all meet again. Forever love my sweet, handsome boy.🖤🐾
Before signing off, I figured you’d like to know that of the many plans we have to honor you, I’m excited to tell you that we’ll be rescuing another baby lab/shepherd mix, just like you were. I know you’d want a companion for your little brother and we hope to make you proud again by providing a loving home to another fur baby in need, sweet Reesle.🥹
By the way, you can visit me in my dreams any time you like baby. As bittersweet as it was the other night, I felt it was your way of telling me you’re ok. Even in heaven, you’re still showing me love. I hope that when you crossed the rainbow bridge, it was the most beautiful site you had ever seen and that you’re getting all the b***y scrubs and an endless supply of plush toys. You deserve it Macaroni!🌈🌁🪽
Love always,
Mommy & Daddy😘
You’ll always have my heart, no matter where you are, I’ll be with you.🤍
