09/08/2026
The chaos in this video is a lot, I jumped around all over the place and I definitely didn’t think before I spoke, as I rewatched it I realised the parts 1, 2, c, b - whatever I said didn’t make sense out loud as much as it did in my head.
You know I used to really try to curate a “professional and polished” version of myself online, I wouldn’t let the raw chaos unfold online, only in my reality.
I had these voices in my head and from my domestication about the way I present myself, and these were massive blocks I’ve had to work through. It was many things that have allowed me to realise the raw Emi, but the biggest one was getting so angry with someone who’s validation I had been unconsciously seeking that allowed me to break free and not care what people think anymore.
So here you can see the intuitive, playful nature in which I create and design as I go, I have a lot of fun now that I’ve figured out how my brain works and just flow with it, rather than fight it. I court chaos in all of its beauty and use it as a catalyst for my creativity ✨
The dress here, shirt in the last video, and jumper in the one before will be available at Helping Hands Op Shops & Community Pantries next week ♻️🪡