17/09/2020
I’ve been saying some pretty nasty things to myself over the last week or two. I’m not always aware of it. Sometimes I am and I do it anyway. And everything is setting me off. I feel like I’m not good enough for anyone or for anything. I feel like I can’t reach out to anyone, I feel like no one wants to hear it. Everyone’s problems are bigger than mine, I’m not allowed to feel how I feel because I have no right to blah blah blah. How gross does that sound? And that just the surface. This year has been.. I mean.. you know a YEAR. But this was the year I said “I don’t have time to hate myself”. But like anything nothing happens over night. Training ones thought patterns is a journey. You need reminders everyday and everywhere. Put post it notes up with happy phrases, change your phone background to something that makes you smile, cover all the mirrors over, unfollow the accounts that make you feel bad, eat a whole thing of grapes, sit in you room with headphones on until the bad feelings aren’t as bad anymore. Do what ever you have to to treat yourself with kindness. Because the world isn’t always kind so why bring that into your body/brain/soul?! You don’t neeeed any of that. You don’t need any of that. You don’t have time babes. ❤️❤️
