02/10/2023
It's very easy to give up, tell to yourself a million times - I quit! Cancel everything, close yourself, ignore the urge, ignore the need... It's easy to do that! It's easy to delete everything that you have been working so hard. It's easy to leave everything behind you and move on. But what is not easy, is to take your s**t together, and get back, work hard, spend your free time learning, trying, doing something, making mistakes, doing anything, but not standing still.
Since March is dead in here. I didn't feel that having your own business was the right thing to do. Even though I wanted, situations, and people that I have met, it felt whatever I do - it's not gonna work out. I shut the website, I went quietly, I just disappeared... For what? For nothing. I felt sad and jealous, why everyone was doing better than me, why everyone was having time to do that, but not me and lots of other whys. But here I am today. Planning my monthly posts, planning my life and my business. Trying again, trying hard to get back.
My grief is over, I want to smile at the world again without any masks, without any force do whatever I like to do... And I'm here today simply giving you a reminder, that is okay not to feel okay. Is okay to take a mental health day, week, month or half of the year! If that is what you crave if that is what your soul needs, why the duck not?!
Am I embarrassed to say it out loud and admit it? Of course! But I'm trying my very best and I'm not ashamed for trying.