26/02/2025
I’ve been very quite on this account for a while and the reason been is the amount of change I have experienced in the last few years.
Moving from the town I found myself in. Leaving and loosing chosen family. Leaving a job I held for 12 years. Mental health and my journey through therapy. The effects of COVID-19 which I am, as are many others, still feeling. Wondering what the point to all this is. Swallowing some hard pills and also tossing a lot of pills in the bin.
I am working on projects for myself and putting the energy I have at the moment into creating for my alter ego
The Madame is a part of me that brings me joy but also courage, and strength to draw boundaries. Learning as Chris to harness the same energy that oozes out of The Madame and Julian Garner
Chris is behind all of these egos, or should I say masks I take off the wall. It isn’t as easy as it looks to just wear myself, in full, unapologetic acceptance. However, it’s coming.
I work really well under pressure and created this look, apart from the pink tulle skirt, white boots and gloves, after been inspired by a Christmas statue that stood on the stage in a venue during a competition I was taking part in. I won! My second achievement in drag because my first one was holding a residency for 12 years in a singular venue, and trust me…it’s not as easy as it looks.
The look was made in less than a week between work and other commitments before the semi finals of the competition. I did it.
In times of pressure I always remind myself of when I was learning millinery from the wonderful at LCF. I wanted to cram in as many hats into this intensive course & remembering the amount of hats I made and finished, having just started in the wonderful art of millinery. Remembering this reminds me, if I could do it then, I can easily do it now!
This journey is an odd one and the guilt, shame, unrealistic expectations, we put on ourselves is so unnecessary and the only person we are competing against is ourselves. F n ck that!
Anyway, to creating. To working with wonderful people like .canitakeyourpicture ! TO ART!