07/07/2026
VAMPIRE LOVE
Syria Whitlock first saw him in the library at Blackwood University, 2:17 AM during finals week.
She was nineteen, an art history major running on vending machine coffee and the kind of exhaustion that makes the world go thin at the edges. He was standing between the Russian literature stacks and the emergency exit, and he was not there. Not really. The overhead lights went right through him, like he was made of cigarette smoke and bad intentions.
He was watching her.
Syria blinked. He didnât.
He had black hair that looked like it had never seen a comb, eyes the color of a storm you drive into on purpose, and a mouth that was too pretty for a man who was probably dead. He wore a coat that belonged in 1890. She noticed that because she was an art history major. She noticed the way his hands were clenched because she was human.
âYouâre not real,â she said, because the library was empty and sheâd been alone for four hours and talking to hallucinations was still less pathetic than talking to herself.
The not-real man tilted his head. âYouâre the first one whoâs said that in a while.â
His voice was wrong. It had an accent she couldnât place, like heâd learned English from books and corpses. It sounded like winter.
Syria closed her textbook. âIâm tired. Iâm stressed. Youâre a stress hallucination. Go away.â
âIâve been trying,â he said. âSince October. Youâre difficult to leave.â
It was October when her roommate, Elise, died. Fell off the clock tower after a party. The police called it an accident. The school called it a tragedy. Syria called it nothing, because sheâd been the one who found her.
Sheâd also been the one who started seeing things after.
The vampire â because what else could he be, looking like that, sounding like that â followed her home that night. She couldnât see him when other people were around. In the quad at noon, he vanished. In lecture halls, he was gone. But at night, in the corners of her dorm, in the mirror behind her, in the space between her bed and the wall: there. Always there.
âYouâre obsessed with me,â she told him a week later. She was brushing her teeth. He was sitting on the edge of her sink like he owned it.
âYes,â he said. Simple. No shame. Vampires didnât do shame.
âWhy?â
âYou screamed when you found her,â he said. âI was passing through. I heard it. It was the loneliest sound Iâve heard in ninety years.â
Syria spit toothpaste into the sink. âSo you what, imprinted on me like a duck?â
âI stayed,â he said. âAnd then I couldnât leave.â
His name was Silas. Heâd died in 1901. Cholera, he said, but Syria thought he was lying. He didnât eat. Didnât sleep. Didnât cast a reflection. He could move things when he wanted to â books, pens, once her keys when she was late to class â but mostly he just looked at her.
For months, that was all it was. Syria living her life, Silas living in the negative space of it. She tried to ignore him. She tried to explain him. Stress. Grief. A very specific, very handsome psychotic break.
Then he started talking.
He told her about the war. The first one. Heâd walked through it after he turned, because bullets didnât matter anymore. He told her about the way Paris smelled in 1920. About the sound a heart makes when it stops. He told her about the others like him, and how most of them went mad from the quiet.
âYou donât,â Syria said. It was February. They were in her dorm. Snow was hitting the window.
âI have you,â Silas said. âYouâre very loud.â
âI donât talk to you that much.â
âYou think loudly. You grieve loudly. You want loudly.â
Syria turned off her lamp. âDonât tell me what I want.â
âYou want to not be alone,â Silas said in the dark. âYou want someone to see what you saw and not flinch. You want to be known.â
She threw a pillow at him. It went through him and hit the wall.
The problem with being obsessed over by a vampire is that you get used to it. The problem with getting used to it is that you start to look for it. By spring, Syria was arranging her life around the corners Silas could stand in. She sat alone at the back of lecture halls. She studied at night. She stopped going home for weekends because her mother would ask why she kept looking at the empty chair.
âDo you love me?â she asked him in April. They were on the roof of the art building. She wasnât supposed to be up there. He wasnât supposed to exist.
âIs that what you call it?â Silas said. He was looking at the city, not her. âI donât think I remember love. I remember need. I remember cold. I remember the way you looked with blood on your hands from trying to help her. You were the only thing in the world that was warm.â
âThatâs not healthy,â Syria said.
âIâm not healthy. Iâm dead.â
âThen why donât you bite me?â She didnât know why she asked. Maybe because she was twenty and stupid and tired of being the only person in her own ghost story. âIsnât that what you do?â
Silas finally looked at her. Really looked. âIf I bite you, you die. Or you become like me. And then you donât get to be warm anymore.â
âIâm not warm now,â Syria said.
âYou are,â he said. âYouâre the warmest thing Iâve seen in a century. Thatâs why I canât.â
Summer came. The dorms emptied. Syria stayed because she had nowhere else to be. Her mother and her new husband were in Arizona. Her father didnât call. Silas stayed because he didnât have a choice, or because he did and he chose her.
They fell into each other the way damaged things do: slowly, then all at once. It wasnât kissing. He couldnât. But he could lie next to her and put his hand over hers, and she could feel the cold of him like a promise. He could tell her stories about every painting in the campus gallery, and she could tell him about Elise, and how sheâd been laughing ten minutes before she fell.
âI think she jumped,â Syria said, once. It was 3 AM. The cicadas were screaming outside.
âI know,â Silas said.
âYou saw?â
âI see a lot of things. I see you not sleeping. I see you checking the locks three times. I see you thinking it should have been you.â
âWas it?â
âNo,â Silas said. âIf it had been you, I would have stopped it. I didnât know her. I know you.â
That was the first time Syria cried in front of him. He couldnât hold her. So he talked. He told her about the first girl he ever loved, who died of the same fever that took him. He told her about the century he spent not speaking, because there was no one to hear. He told her that obsession was a kind of prayer, and heâd been praying at her feet for eight months.
Fall semester started. Syria took a class on Gothic literature. Silas laughed when she read Dracula out loud.
âHeâs very dramatic,â Silas said. âWeâre not all like that.â
âYouâre worse,â Syria said. âYouâre quiet. Thatâs worse.â
âYou like it.â
She did. God help her, she did.
The problem with loving a vampire is that the world doesnât get to see it. Syriaâs friends thought she was depressed. Her professors thought she was gifted but troubled. Her mother thought she needed to come home.
âDo you ever get lonely?â Syria asked him in November. They were in the library again. Full circle. A year since Elise. A year since him.
âEvery day,â Silas said. âFor a hundred years. And then you.â
âCanât youââ She gestured vaguely. âFind another vampire? Make friends?â
âTheyâre not you,â he said. Like it was simple. Like it was math.
Syria turned twenty in December. She spent the day in bed. Silas sat at the foot of it and named every star he could remember from before electricity ruined the sky. At midnight, he said, âI want to give you something.â
âYou donât have anything.â
âI have a truth. I wasnât passing through when Elise died. I was sent.â
Syria sat up. âSent?â
âThere are older things than me. They collect grief. They felt yours. They sent me to watch. To see if youâd break. If you did, I was supposed to⌠help you along.â
âKill me?â
âRecruit me,â Silas said. âYou didnât break. You got angry. You got loud. You stayed warm. I told them no.â
âAnd they let you?â
âNo,â Silas said. âThatâs why I canât leave. Iâm tethered. If I go too far from you, I start to come apart. If you die, I do too. Properly this time.â
Syria stared at him. âSo youâre trapped.â
âIâm kept,â Silas said. âThereâs a difference.â
She should have been afraid. She wasnât. She was twenty and she was loved by a dead thing that had defied older, darker things just to stand in her dorm room. That was the most anyone had ever done for her.
âDo you regret it?â she asked.
âI regret that you canât touch me,â he said. âI regret that youâll get old. I regret that Iâll have to watch it. But you?â He shook his head. âNever you.â
They made it work. Thatâs the thing about dark love stories. They donât end. They endure. Syria finished her degree. She got a job at a gallery in Boston. She bought an apartment with big windows and no mirrors, because Silas hated them. He couldnât see himself, and it made him remember he was gone.
People thought she was eccentric. She talked to herself sometimes. She set a place at the table for no one. She never dated. âIâm particular,â she told her coworkers.
She was. She was particular for a man who only existed in the dark, who looked at her like she was the last fire in the world.
Sometimes, when the gallery was empty, Silas would stand in the middle of the 19th century wing and tell her which artists were frauds and which ones had seen real monsters. Sometimes, Syria would lie in bed and talk until she fell asleep, and sheâd wake up with the blanket tucked in, even though he couldnât touch it.
He said it was the other things. The older things. They liked her. They were keeping her warm for him.
Syria didnât care. Let them.
On her thirtieth birthday, she stood on the roof of her apartment building. Silas was beside her. The city was spread out below, alive and oblivious.
âDo you think weâre wrong?â she asked.
âNo,â Silas said. âI think weâre true. Thereâs a difference.â
âWill you stay?â
âUntil you tell me to go,â he said. âAnd you wonât.â
She wouldnât.
He was the only one who saw her that night in October. Heâs the only one who sees her still. The rest of the world gets Syria Whitlock, curator, quiet, a little strange.
She gets Silas. The cold. The obsession. The love that doesnât end, because it never lived.
Itâs dark. Itâs wrong. Itâs hers.