20/05/2024
"REGRETS"
I have a story to tell. Back in grade school, I could keep up with the smart kids and even received awards in grades 4, 5, and 6 without much effort. I knew I deserved those awards because I had the ability.
When I graduated with honors, no one from my family came to my graduation. No mom, no siblings, but my mom is just at home, F*ck right? I had to "pin" the medal on myself with my teacher and take note I don't even have a Graduation picture. From then on, I went to school every day just to escape from home.
In high school, there were jokes about how I was just there for show because I didn't contribute much. I didn't do cleaning duties and wasn't interested in school activities. But I enjoyed English, thinking it would be useful someday, and it is, for my job now.
I didn't take my studies seriously and ended up with back subjects because I thought, "No one appreciates me anyway, so why bother?" Looking back, I realize how foolish I was. I risked my future just because my parents didn't appreciate me.
Now, I see that nothing really changed. My mom didn't care at all. I wasted my chances to improve my future just to spite her. If I could turn back time, I would accept that some parents just don't care about their kids. I wish I hadn't let my resentment affect me. I should have taken my studies seriously. Maybe then, my life would be better now.