12/06/2020
THIS is what I survived fu***ng for? This? Sitting in an empty shoe warehouse on a Sunday evening, missing my family and wrangling with a recalcitrant sewing machine?!?!
Yup. It sure is.
Last July, I was diagnosed with
Last August, I underwent a radical hysterectomy. There were some complications, but it seemed to be a success. I demanded
pate and tenderloin from while in the hospital, which was possible in Rochester thanks to I figured I would be plenty recovered to still see the sheep shop through the holidays.
Last September, on the first day I could walk unsupported, I went to Jalaja Bonheim's final Circlework training, and without that massive blessing and the love of those women, I may have fallen apart in October, because...
Last October, I found out that I would have to undergo more treatment, the surgery wasn't as successful as I hoped. I made charts calculating the odds of being alive and if so, enduring certain serious quality of life issues. We were working on a marketing project for the store with and and we had a photoshoot. We managed to look deceptively fantastic. This is because Mark calmed my hysterical crying and efforts to run away from the studio. He did a lot of this, because he is a wonderful man (unfair that he's so good looking, too). I also drove to a few times every week and trained their genius crafters to make our slippers.
In November and December I had chemo and radiation. During this time one of our sons was sick for 10 days, and the other required emergency surgery and required a three day hospital stay, in a different city. I had mouth sores, I vomited, I pooped myself (twice), I was high as hell on the steroid they gave the president, I drove an average of three hours a day to treatments, I was exhausted and scared and it was horrible. I ALSO sat in an unfamiliar bedroom alone and answered your emails, created PDFs of shipping labels to email to the shop, answered phone calls, ordered materials, paid bills, and generally did everything I could to keep this business alive too.
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