05/22/2026
I’ve been noticing a shift in my heart lately. One that is softening for Mabel in how I gave to Bluebell, giving her aspects of me that I have kept reserved for Blu and Blu only; or so I thought. Developing a new relationship with Mabel has been quite eye-opening. Not only does she remind me of Blu every single day, in ways that only I will only ever notice and feel, but if close my eyes when I lay my head on her chest, for a second I’m transported back to Blu and I’m right there with her again.
I’m not expecting or asking of Mabel to be a replacement. What was a need and longing for a dog companion after losing Bluebell, has turned into an awakening of what I had with Blu was because of what I gave her and what I’m noticing with Mabel is that the more I am myself with her, the more I’m realizing I was just as special as Bluebell was. Who and how I am brings out the sweetness in them and what makes them extra special; and they have both become a reflection of my own heart and for that I am floored with the gift of acknowledgment.
I want Bluebell back so badly but knowing I can’t physically, I’m learning that I can spiritually in new ways with Mabel and that has been a real gift in teaching me what is possible when you love yourself again through the eyes of a dog.
The second picture is so special to me because I captured an expression that I miss so much in Blu and the last picture, well, that right there is my first true love looking back at me.