04/21/2021
My entire life I felt like I was ‘hiding’. What I mean to say by that is hiding my true self from the world
This was because of embarrassment, shame, guilt, being a victim and people who just picked on me for no reason.
I still remember back in the day when I was having the time of my life with friends at a party and laughing hysterically. One of my friends parents apparently thought I was laughing at him and so he came after me and tried to assault me because of that. On top of this, it didn’t help when he drank a little too much. During my teenage years, this was traumatic for me..
What I take a way from this is, When you are on the path of living your best self, there will ALWAYS be people who will do everything they can to bring you down. I cannot control that. The only thing I can control is focus on myself and surrounding myself around the RIGHT people who want to see me win and share the same core values, beliefs and goals I have in life.
I’m no longer going to apologize for who I’am. For the longest time, I protected myself from showing people the real me because I didn’t want to get hurt. But truth is, I’m no longer going to tolerate toxic people and who take away my energy. Focus on the + and not the -
I have NEVER posted a picture of myself shirtless. Just to be transparent, I was always self conscious for taking my shirt off. On top of that, as a kid I had keloid scars from chicken pox and it made me 100x more self conscious.
I post this today because, I have a new perspective on life. Today I publicly announce the celebration of myself.
The first pic is of me was on Dec. 2020 when I was diagnosed with . The second pic is of me today. Thank you for the 75hard program.
**us