06/04/2026
One of the strangest parts of schizophrenia isn’t always the hallucination itself, it’s looking back on how you reacted to it. In the moment, it can feel completely real, and your response makes perfect sense. But afterward, when you realize what happened, you might find yourself thinking, “Did I really do that?” Sometimes it’s confusing, sometimes it’s embarrassing, and sometimes it’s oddly funny. Schizophrenia has a way of making hindsight feel much stranger than the experience itself.
Hi, I’m Michelle and I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia. To shoe that my episodes of psychosis are non-violent, I use a security camera in my apartment to document them. The recordings show me sitting on my couch, talking to myself, and making strange facial expressions, but I do not pose any harm or threat to others.
- Michelle Hammer