03/02/2024
Is this me blowing you a kiss or me trying to hide my wrinkles? Yup, you guessed it, Iām owning the vanity. I wish I had the courage to post something totally unfiltered; no make-up, no hair doo and the silver stripe on top of my head thatās there wherever you part my red locks of thick hair. P.S. itās not there now , as my roots got hydrated a few days ago. Give me a few weeks. While this is my dress shop page, itās kinda melding with my personal page. I guess Iām using is as a public journal you may say, a place I can share my feelings. Facebook is aā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦.. pauseā¦another pauseā¦ā¦.. Iām not sure how to express my feelings. There are parts about it I love, however there are much more parts about it I hate. As Iām getting older Iād like to think Iām stronger, wiser, more confident. For example, I can be very unfiltered expressing my the feelings of my heart. I share my life and all its chapters and frankly assume others will do the same. This thinking has often got me in trouble.I have been told by many dear family members I am nosy, I ask too many questions, Iām embarrassing etc. but this doesnāt deter me. Isnāt this why weāre here on this journey called life? To learn, to grow, to become who are meant to become?? What better way then to learn from eachother? We all have different lives, no two are the same. Why then canāt we be like the roots of the California redwoods, growing together, holding eachother up through the storms and swaying through the sunny times. Iām getting to a point, really I am. I donāt get on Facebook much. Iāve gotten on it seems more these past months , during my closing then ever. I used to get on once a month maybe. Itās a time sucker. One, because Iām old and a tech t**d and can never figure out the new changes. But 2, and most importantly, most of the time I felt more miserable about myself when I got off. Most people post their best selves, I mean above average selves, a false reality really. Iāve been left with the despair of feeling not enough. This post may get me in trouble ,however, my intent is just to share my own heart, my own feelings, my own experience. I am not in the judgement seat, thank goodness ,although I believe weāre all our own worst judge. My favorite fb read is posts from Tanner Godfrey. Heās real and says it like it is. Iād tag him but I donāt know how. Iāve learned so much from
Him. His experiences have changed me for the better. I would love it if so many others would do the same. This is in part what Iām trying to do here. I just want to be real and share my life and things Iāve learned through the years. I am continually learning and have grown so much in just these past few months. While I canāt quite go unfiltered with my picture, I can with the feelings of my heart. I have much to share about the goings on in my life as well as all the kindness and miracles and love poured out to me and my family. We are so very grateful. As my posts are quite lengthy (sorry about that, not really, you donāt have to readš) and my thought process is like a tornado, I will share in segments. Much love, Camille
