06/09/2024
I just wanted to make a post to try and have a sense of relation to any and every artist who is currently or has gone through their struggles. Posts like these won't happen often, but this message is important for me to relay:
I quit my normal job on Friday halfway through my shift. The amount of physical and mental stress that this job had put me through was way too much for how little I made at this company, and for reasons that I won't diverge into.
The craft of designing clothes has transformed me into someone that I have heavily desired to be for a very long time. I have always been a creative person: from spending years day in and day out writing poetry, evolving that into short stories. After I was burnt out and seeing that I had more potential elsewhere, I went to abstract painting and that was a fun project. After a long hiatus of putting my creative juices in the freezer, I found new life in content creation.
It was at that point where I had a really sweet small following and they wanted to buy merch off of me. So I got to designing with the help of people who created a mascot and a typography logo for me. In the middle of this process of designing merchandise, I fell in love all over again. From start to finish, I found an element within myself that I never thought I had within me. Over 4 years of starting from very basic designs to growing into what I have put out in the past 3 months has been nothing short of fulfilling for the soul.
My message to you: It took me to today at 31 years old to find the nectar of my trees. Over 15 years! The syrup is overflowing in my mind, and my heart is full with its bountiful reward. Keep pushing on your creative pursuits. Even if it falls through, find another. Keep searching. Find that tree within yourself and grind day in and day out like I did. Make a business out of it and determine your worth. And if it falls under, try again. And again and again and again. Over and over and over.
I promise you that the journey will reward you for your efforts. Thank you all for finding this page and believing in my art. Be proud of your little accomplishment. It's the small things that add up overall.