18/03/2026
I finished my first painting in years. After my marriage broke down in 2015 I tired and tried to access my creativity but it was broken. Coming out wrong, half finished overdone, or just plain odd. Since I broke down after years of heaviness trying to do it on my own, I surrendered my entire heart, my children, my marriage and all the trauma. God has taken me on a long painful but beautiful journey. I lost it all so there was no point in avoiding the inevitable.... Total surrender and consecration to my Lord God through the covenant of blood Christ. I cannot express in my human words what He did for me, because I was willing, because I surrendered and because I asked " Lord teach me to love you above all else, I don't know how" Jesus Christ lives within me, I am reconciled with God, all the fear and past sin has been washed away. To live in His fullness, absolute utter fullness is unlike anything I can compare to even the most exhilarating and delightful experience I have had. God is not looking for perfection, He is looking for a willing surrendered & contrite heart. The water is wild get in with me!! .I am happy, I am healthy, I live in abundance, I bless others with the blessings my Father in heaven showers on me, my children and family members are well and I love life. So be it God.
